Not a single day passes that I don’t think of you and our friendship. But everyday passes that I don’t do anything for it.
I feel like we’re in limbo. I think it’s time I actually put some effort in, I owe you that in the least. I love you, neighbor.
You know someone asked me if I’m attached to anything anymore.
I couldn’t think of anything but my dogs.
Is that a problem?
I can’t describe how much I miss you. I can’t remember who that was anymore, but I remember our bond. Even though I don’t believe in a god I feel and talk to you sometimes like there is one.
Lately I’ve been drinkin like there’s a message in the bottle
Restriction is a bitch. I feel like I’m having withdrawl shit from everything. More like anxiety from not going out and having fun. But I’m trying to stay away from substance abuse and I’m having a hard time with that. I’m happier with it and I know that’s bad. This is a stupid feeling. I hate taking meds. All these fucking attachments. I don’t want any strings on anything. I guess I have a fear of loosing everything, yet at the same time I feel like I have nothing. And that’s not true either. I wish I put more effort into people; have more faith. I do have regrets and I’m letting them weigh me down. I need a redo or an escape. Something. I need to stop overthinking. My mind is out of control, it’s everywhere. I feel shallow, unintelligent. Rewind, delete, rewrite. Give me a fuckin remote here.
Europe I can’t wait for you.
yayyyy so my brother completely reset my computer after I moved out, and now that I’m back I have to RE-DOWNLOAD EVERYTHING. Another sleepless night. Reasons why I smoke.
Be not the slave of your own past. Plunge into the sublime seas, dive deep and swim far, so you shall come back with self-respect, with new power, with an advanced experience that shall explain and overlook the old.
Emerson
